Am loving songs from lady Antebellum , especially need you now... hehe..

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.

For me it happens all the time.It's a quarter after one,
I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
.And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Hehehe... its the kind of songs.. that makes me miss syg so much more..

ooo.. and this one...

We run on fumes
Your life and mineLike the sands of time
Slippin’ right on through
And our love’s the only truth
That’s why I run to you

This world keeps spinning faster
Into a new disaster so I run to you I run to you baby
And when it all starts coming undone
Baby you’re the only one I run toI run to you

miss miss miss my dear dear :(

not again..

I think kan, i am really bobo at times..
I honestly have this tendency of doing something, despite knowing that i am not going to like how i feel at the end..

I like to be updated with what dear dear blogs about.. so i reads his past entries, to see what i have missed out for the past years. and when i forget , i read it again. I like to see his happy posts, learn more about him through his words and entries before i came into his life. How he expressed his love for his ex, in words, poems, gift. How he writes his frustration, dissapointment, betrayal .. how he writes about the friends that he cares and loves.

I would see myself in photos with him, but neither of us really paid attention back then. Yet, i find myself in one place with him more often than i thought.

Yup.. despite knowing that i will feel insecure after reading the ex stories, i still read them each time.

Just like how, i keep ordering Prosperity Burger every Chinese New Year despite knowing I don't like it...

but oh well.. a past is a past, its not something that i dwell on ...
and the future seems uncertain as well..

so yup.. "Life is short... so i am just going to enjoy it" , think less dearie :)

lina boleh

The interview is over :P
hehehe.. it was okie i guess..
there were lots of impromptu moments..
feels like i overestimate myself as well..:P

hehehe..
but but , come one lina
you can only go forward from here..
forward forward forward :)

hehehe.. its going to be hard
but u gonna take it to your stride
and challenge yourself to the max :)

come on babe u boleh..

productive day?

I didn't do much of my allocated work today except the high priority ones,
though the work that i did wasn't mine
i was happy that the job was done well
i guess its a new experience each time
and u never know, that it might come in handy in future :)

hehehe .. tmr is the interview for my job
Handed in my cover letter and my resume,
both my colleague help me to go through them,
hehehe :)
thumbs up from them, and 3 copies were made for my interviewers..

scared tmr ? yup.. scared shit.. hehe :)
me want dear dear hugs :( booo..

There is a new girl in the unit..
haven met her yet
but apparently she thinks she is a princess coz she treat my two other hsemates like they have to layan her or something
but i shall save my impression of her when i actually do meet her and from there
will make my own judgment of her
she might not be that bad ?

hehehe..
darrenham (my hamster) hehe.. is a light sleeper..
hehehe, i realised that coz he is active around 5 ish to 6ish near 7,and again at 1ish near 2 ish..
apart from tht time, he is basically sleeps like a pig .. hehe :p hahaha
so basically when he is sleeping, even my handphone message tone, or opening of door, or sudden noise would woke him up, and he would look so irritated and then pengsan back.. hahahaha. so adorable..
but he sleeps well through songs which i blast nowadays at night :) hahaha
i really need to get him a new ball and some new food. but a bit down on money actually :(
will see how yar syg ?

hehehe.. dear dear gonna get me a loud big alarm clock
hehehe, i really really need it :)
wanna wakie early and go to work..
wanna make a good impression.
people don't really care why u are late
they just know that u are :(

hehehe ... gonna go dinner with my housemates and the new girl
hehehe.. i do hope that i like her :)
wouldn't want to make more enemies now we? hahaha

ciaoz..

sun after ribut?

I am going to have my interview on Friday.
Hehehe, my first ever official interview for the position of Student Recruitment Executive
i am scared though :( need advice... :(
should do my research thoroughly as well and see online for potential questions.
i should go take the undergraduate and postgraduate booklet and study them :)
will be interviewed by my boss, my boss boss, and my boss boss boss :P hehehe..

stayed in tonight.. missed dinner, just slept, lie down and listen to music.
Let my feelings overwhelmed, let it go and then decide enough is enough for the day at least :P
so yup, then decide to blog and do some research research..
can't wait for my career to take the next step and study the next step as well

i have to keep telling myself,
that no one can help me but me..
so wallowing in self pity of how kesian i am is just ... ridiculous..
if my mum can do it, and after all she has been through
i am sure i can
coz compared to hers, mine is really peanuts...

Today is me and Dear dear 22nd month anniversary :) hehehe.. past few months prove to be a big challenge for us.. just want you to know dear, that i still loves you very very much.

sigh

Hmmm.. things at work is tricky

I love my colleagues and my boss.. they are really nice..
but the office politic can honestly get my spirit down..
people just seems so bitter
only DL and MN seems to enjoy working here..
really would prefer to incorporate their way or work :)
if when they are not around..
i can sense nothing but negatism :( sigh

on another bad news
my job weren't confirmed
i basically have to go through interview and all
and they still need to think through whether am i eligible or not..
so yup.. i am upset :(

a) because i actually thought that my job is confirmed already
b) because i have to bend to the lagoon view management because i could not get a full time employment letter. thus making me - student means i have to make memo all. this is not the part that pisses me off.. this is the part where they win and i lose :( *refer previous post for story

feel so shitty now.. this has really been a demoralizing week..
dear and me also not stable :(
i honestly just want hugs, no words, no judgment, just hugs hugs hugs...

fucking angry

I am so so pissed now..
I have been nothing but patient, all ready to be friendly ..
but only to be treated like i am in no importance as a customer
or at least as someone who has been patient despite the shenanigan that was thrown to me.

Went and updated my account at CIMB and was happy the first time round, coz the service was good. Came back the 2nd time after reading the brochure to sign up for cimb click only to meet this really rude service person..

I waited for her to be done with this customer she was attending to regarding cimb clicks. So, after she was done, i proceed to ask. I want to sign up for cimb clicks, what do i do..

and then she went with sulky face and rude voice ask me..
u got do atm card edi anot? yes i answered
u go and change the e-point..
i was like hmmm, this is my first time..
then she said... It's my lunch hour , i want to eat! and then just left

i was like what the fucking fuck.. i mean honestly, was i rude to you.. NO.. i needed information, you could have passed me to your colleague no..
and honestly what gives you the right to even treat me that way..
because i look like a kid, so you don't see the need to at least be professional.

then went to maybank..
again.. they told me to go and fill up form and all and then wait
i waited and waited..
and then after some time,
i went and inquire and got cock stared at coz apparently i was supposed to know to have put it in the rack.
i was like.. nobody told me..
here i am coming with the faith that someone would talk to me and advise on me..
but no, they literally left me hanging there
thank god, i did my research and knew exactly what i wanted..
but you as a service person, what kind of attitude is it
cock staring?

to top it up,
went back to lagoon view to collect my id.
i was getting pretty impatient already coz they took their own sweet time
sempat talk talk
sempat laugh laugh
and told the person before me
sorry
we have no time to attend to u
so plz come back when we are free

i was like.. no..
you told me this twice already
and its not easy for me to come out of work to suit your time to retrieve the card.
i can only go during my break .
so since you have already change the collection date twice
i don't see why i have to wait any longer

and then she brings my form and says
ur card not ready bcoz ur employment letter states part time and not full time
so we can't do the card

i was like.. what
why din u tell me earlier?
i came twice
and u looked at it twice
but it took you freaking me coming back twice, looking sour and impatient..
but no.. u din tell
and how dare u use that against me when its clearly inefficiency on ur side
i was like..

3 hours i went to settle this errands
3 hours away from work..
to only meet
3 stupid people who can't do their job right

is it that hard to ask for good services these days?
does it takes one to be like really bitchy and angry
to get what she or he wants..

coz when you are nice, they just freaking take u for granted
coz when you are young and probably less important
so why not treat them
like shit..

fuck off lar..